So following up from my last post where I was saying, (complaining), how tired I was – I decided that the world did not deserve me and I went into hiding for a week. Well that is what it felt like – I turned off the computer, switched off the news, bought no newspapers, went hill walking and jogging – by the end of the week I was spilling over with energy and almost optimistic about life.
I have done this before for longer periods of time and know from those experiences that it has been good for me in the past. I walked the Camino de Santiago a couple of times, an 800km walk across Northern Spain. During this I carried my own rucksack with everything I needed for the whole journey. I read no newspapers during the trek, listened to no news – and the world kept turning quite happily without me watching it.
So preparing for work again this week I made the catastrophic mistake of checking my email last Friday afternoon. Was I mental? Friday afternoons should be a no email period at the best of time, but at the end of a week off – I had obviously been too good to myself and requited some self flagellation. It certainly did the trick.
I read through a list of problems on Friday afternoon that I would have to deal with on Monday – do I hate myself? I could not sleep on Saturday night as the problems came to mind just as my head hit the pillow – ah I must really love myself.
By Sunday evening I was positively depressed, clinically I am sure – and I had not even got to Monday morning. To be expected I did not wake on Monday brimming with energy and ready to race into the day. I turned over and wondered why did I look at my mail again?