I was in Scotland last week. While there I took a drive down memory lane – I don’t know if I was looking for something, if I was it does not exist anymore.
This photo show where I lived for most of my childhood years, the hills in the background was my play ground back then. I walked and drove around, my first impression was of how small it all was in comparison to my internal image. The second was how idyllic the area area is, and that got me wonder about how things are more a state of mind than most anything else.
Nothing stays the same, change is happening all the time. The changes may sometime be so small that I don’t see them – but that is based on my ability to see and my perceptions. In general I was a happy child, and I had people that I did not like to be around. The older I got the more difficult it became – I liked arty things and that was not too acceptable in that place at that time. I was happier reading, making puppets, writing song and singing them – I stopped doing these things, my mother wanted me to be tougher, strange.
Last week I saw all this for what it was – only memories in my head, some good and some not. Thinking about the past for lengths of time has not brought benefits to me – and I like many others have spent too much time in the past.
I get great benefits from thinking and acting on today, taking steps to get what I want now – not wishing the impossible from things that have already happened. I don’t live there anymore, I have not lived there for a long time, it is no longer part of my daily life.
I live in Dublin, Ireland – I have done for nearly 11 years. I am part of the most privileged people in this world, it is good to acknowledge this.
